Saturday, July 30, 2011

Where is your center anchored?

So the preacher, myself, & the boys (samps included) took a few days off and went camping.  Yes I typed it correctly.  Camping.   It wasn't anything new to us.  He grew up camping.  To some degree, I did too.  So we carried the boys.  We done a little boating, tubing and they did a little fishing while Samps and I stayed in where it was nice and cool. 
While they were out fishing I stayed back and worked on the Sunday School lesson.  And for some reason or another, Daddy led me to John 21.  We are studying John these days, but this particular verse wasn't on the map for the lesson.  John 21: 6 Jesus tells the boys "Throw your net on the right side of the boat and you will find some."  Verse 7 is what got me.  "Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, "It is the Lord!"  Do you see it?  Poor Peter was so busy with the task at hand, he didn't even realize that it was Jesus.  How many times have I been just like Peter?  More than I would like to count.  It is presumed that John is the one who recognized Him & told Peter who it was.  Oh to be more like John.  I realize that John was younger than Peter.  So that explains it a lil better.  As a busy mother and wife, I get so caught up in the business of life I often miss Him too.  So often though, I wish I could be more John like.  To be young enough, laid back enough, slow enough to recognize Him when He speaks.  But it takes bells and whistles for Him to sometimes get my attention.

 However, when He does get my attention there is no room for doubt.  I don't have to ask who He is.  I don't have to have one of my boys to tell me it is Him.  I Know!  And boy do I love hearing that voice.   As I sat lakeside and watched as others played and fished I wondered if they know Him.  I have to admit, I am warped that way.  I even wonder if some think I am just down right weird.  But I can't help it.  In her devotional book "Jesus Calling" Sarah Young wrote these words.  They pierced my heart.  "Come to me continually.  I am meant to be the Center of your consciousness, the Anchor of your soul.  Your mind will wander from Me, but the question is how far you allow it to wander.  An anchor on a short rope lets a boat drift only slightly before the taut line tugs the boat back toward the center.  Similarly, as you drift away from Me, My Spirit within you gives a tug, prompting you to return to Me.  As you become increasingly attuned to My Presence, the length of rope on your soul's Anchor is shortened.  You wander only a short distance before feeling the inner tug telling you to return to your true Center in Me."  He even used Samps.  Where we stayed the dogs had to be kept on a leash.  (Like I was gonna let him run? Please!)  I could let him run ahead but if he started in a direction that I didn't want him going all I had to do was lock the leash and bring him back a little closer to me.  Our Father is no different.  We are a lot like Sampson.  We are on a leash.  Only difference is, do we recognize the pull back to the Father when we go the wrong way?

So I came to the conclusion if I come across weird, so be it. I may be like Peter and get caught up in the busyness but I have my center anchored.  And believe me, I am holding on for dear life.  I'm not letting go. 

Thursday, July 21, 2011

We just got a letter, we just got a letter, we just got a letter, wonder who it's from!

I have to admit I was just about to really get discouraged.  I haven't heard anything from him since the first letter we received way back when.  I had even had the thought I don't think we should do this anymore.  It isn't what I thought it would be.  Then a couple of days ago we received a newsletter with information about the region he lives in with this same picture of him on it.  So it was made especially for us.  So I thought ok God we can do it a little longer.  And then today, I go to the mail box expecting nothing more than junk & bills and guess what is there.  Yep a letter from T.  Needless to say, it put a smile on my face and my heart in perspective.  First he greets us, his sponsors in the name of the Lord Jesus.  This tells me whether or not we meet on this side of heaven, I will meet him there because he is a believer.  He asked how we are & hopes we are well.  He tells us he celebrated Easter with family and grandparent.  He asked about our weather.  In the newsletter we got it said they are experiencing the worst drought in 60 years.  Then what got me the most is he says he likes to take care of the vegetables during his vacation.  How simple is that?  All I can say is we all have way too much.  This sweet nineteen year old boy likes to take care of vegetables y'all. 
Once again, Daddy has made Himself & His plan very clear to me.  Keep on keeping on.  He is in this.  I just got so busy looking at me and what I want from this that I forgot about Him.  But then again, He also has a way of showing me that He really does know the desires of my heart.  And if I am following Him, my desires are his desires. 
This has made my day!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Sticking out like a sore thumb or shining like the northern star

Just because I go days with out posting doesn't mean I'm not thinking or praying about one.  I can't just put one up for the sake of saying I did.  I have started a couple but Daddy said no.  Until this morning.  During the stillness of the day, before everyone was up & stirring, He spoke.  Loudly.  This was taken from "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young, " Do not be afraid to be different from other people.  The path I have called you to travel is exquisitely right for you.  The more closely you follow My leading, the more fully I can develop your gifts.  To follow Me wholeheartedly, you must relinquish your desire to please other people.  However, your closeness to Me will bless others by enabling you to shine brightly in this dark world."

I have to admit I have never really had a problem with being different from other people.  It is just a trait that is in me.  So when I read that line I was ok with it.  But, the more I read, the more my heart strings were pulled.  Our Father doenst' want us to be different for the sake of attention.  He wants us to stand out in the crowd for Him.  He wants our light shining so brightly for Him that there's no mistaking who we belong to.  He has called me exquisitely and specifically for the road He has me on.  Sometimes it isn't an easy road.  But I know He has my back.  I know it is the road He is leading me on.  Yes, there have been times when I have said I really don't want to go today.  But others when I was so blessed and thankful that He took me screaming and crying and pitching the biggest fit ever.  Why do we do that?  Why do we fight with what He wants for us?  As I told the ladies in Sunday School Sunday, He is our Father.  Why would He harm us?  Do we really want to harm our own children?  NO.  Our Father is no different.  He loves us with an everlasting love.  So why not just let Him lead?  Why not just surrender to His will?  Why not just be a big girl or boy about it and say ok you know what?  You are right.  Let's go.  We will never really know if we can trust Him if we never give Him a chance.  I love what T. D. Jakes said about Psalm 1:3  "Whatever he does prospers." How will you ever prosper if you never go?  So what if we stick out like a sore thumb.  So what if what we do doesn't please everyone.  Who are you trying to please anyway?  This world or your Father.  In the end the world ain't got nothing for you anyway.  But oh my what my Daddy has in store for us!  So get out there and let your light shine.  Stick out like a great ol big sore thumb but do it because Daddy is leading the way and gettin all the praise for it. Not you!  Let this world know who you belong to.  Albert Pujols don't have a problem letting folks know  why should we?

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I have used this quote of scriptures on here before, however today it is ringing in my head.  So I just thought I would share it again.  And the more I think about it the more I believe before God calls me home this will be my life's verses exactly how they read because it is just like Daddy speaking boldly to me.

"this is the day that I have made.  rejoice and be glad in it.  begin the day with open HANDS of faith, ready to receive all that I am pouring into this BRIEF PORTION of your life. be careful not to complain about anything, even the weather, since I am the author of your circumstances.  the best way to handle unwanted situations is to thank ME for them.  this act of faith frees you from resentment and frees ME to work MY ways into the situation, so that good emerges from it.  to find joy in this day, you must live within its boundaries.  I knew what I was doing when I divided time in to twenty-four-hour segmants.  I understand human frailty, and I know that you can bear the weight of only one day at a time, do not worry about tomorrow or get stuck in the past.  there is abundant life in MY presence TODAY."

And as Forest Gump would say, "That's all I got to say bout that."

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Vacation 2011

Well, we made if back from the beautiful place pictured above.  Can't say I was ready.  But D made me come home.  So my attitude is this; if I can't be there, then I may as well be home.

This was the view one morning.  I know.  Priceless. Right?

This is what we saw as we walked out the door.   One of these days I'm gonna have me some of these in my yard.  Here or there.  I know. I just know I will have some of these.

Can you see the umbrella's?  One of them had our name on it.  I know today it is wondering what happened to me.
We done a lot of this.....

While watchin them do this.

And then one day they did this....


And we were left on the boat wondering where time went.
And wondering when they got big enough to do that with out us.
We can't go without me taking some of these....

I think this one just might be my favorite though.  

I am often times found saying that this place is my home away from home.  Which is really, more often than not,  exactly how I feel.   And as long as these three and our heavenly Father is there (Samps too) it is home.
I will have to say though that Daddy does know the desires of my heart.  He proved that Sunday when we got there.  Our unit was the only one ready.  Early. I might add.

I have to tell you though that Daddy spoke gently to me when we got home.  This life isn't really about the vacations we take, the homes we have or the stuff we have.  It is really all about Him.  He blesses us each day.  It is up to us to decide what to do with those blessings.  I will choose to thank Him & praise Him well for what He has given me.  For what He gave up for me. 
If you are a member of our church family you have heard D say you don't have to be in church to worship.  And that is true.  You can worship our Father wherever you are.  I did just that one day.  I had my ipod blaring Travis singing "This is the Day", & then "His Life for Mine".  Some of those folks walking past may have just thought I was sweatin' like a pig.  But I let the tears run down my face in worship & praise for my Father.  Nothing like it.  So yes.  In that empty chair up there I had a worship service sitting on the beach.  I didn't have to wonder if the tide would reach my chair.  It did & I felt it.