Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Why Bother?

I am asking myself that tonight.  Sometimes it just hurts too much to care.  But begin a called child of the King we have to.  It is in us.  It is in me.  If you know us, you know we sponsor a child through Compassion. He is in a "third world" country.  But what I have experienced tonight just may be the next thing to it.  It felt like it anyway.  It just down right hurt.  It left me wondering how many more little souls are out there going through the same thing that I witnessed.  I have lived my entire life and never had a need that wasn't met.  My parents have always been there and still are.  I have never spent one moment of my life ever really wondering if they cared at all.  I knew it.  I always knew where they were. Our boys know the same thing.  They never have to wonder where we are.  If we care.  If we love them.  They know.  But what I witnessed tonight tore my heart out. Right here in our small town.  Our community.  Our country.  To the point that I think maybe I need to pull way back and reevaluate.  Examine it all really closely.  But then again.....Those disciples whom Jesus called right out of the boat didn't question.  Didn't reevaluate.  They just said ok.  We will go.  Thing of it is, they are like us.  They didn't have to travel very far to minister.  They just followed Him.  I wonder if that sometimes hurt them too.  Was is sometimes too much?  But look at what they would have missed if they had stayed in the boat.  Look at what I would miss if I stayed in the boat.  Or just road with my seat belt buckled.  I have learned to be careful in what I ask God to do.  He just might be in a playful mood and say ok.  Let's see what she will do with this.  I know He gets a great big kick out of me sometimes.   I ask.  He delivers.  And I find myself where I am right now.  Wondering what to do.  But I am also asking and wondering if this just might be satan's way of attacking what God is trying to do.  

I heard a famous preacher say that sometimes when we hurt the most that is when God is getting ready to pour out more blessings than we can stand.  We just don't want to go through the pain.  I have to be honest
I have been through some pain and I have received many blessings.  The pain is so worth it. 

2 Chronicles 15:7 says "But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded."

Monday, September 19, 2011

My "newest" love

O! MY! WORD!  That is about all I can say about this new CD.  If you are interested in hearing a beautiful song from this project go over to the side bar with the list of blogs I follow & click on his name.  You don't have to watch the video but just listen to the song.  It is entitled "Thanks be to our God".  Again all I can say is O! MY! WORD! 
He had a worship service & that is honestly what is was this past Saturday night.  I was in desperate need of some good worship.  Now let me first say that we do have church on Sunday.  We do have some wonderful worship services,  but I was in desperate need of more!  I mean desperate.  So I had asked D if we might could go.  I also told him if he wasn't interested, then a dear friend would go with me.  By Friday night I didn't care if anyone went, I knew I had to.  And boy, was I ever so blessed.  I have listened to it over & over since Saturday night.  I listened to the song on the blog all night Friday & all day Saturday.  I hope you will go and listen and be as blessed as I have been. 
I will have to say D went.  I don't know if I was more excited to just be there or that he went.  But either way it was the biggest time I have had in a while.  I got to spend some good quality time with our Heavenly Daddy & my hubby!  Don't hardly get any better than that.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

To know Him

"come to Me and rest.  give your mind a break from its habitual judging.  you form judgements about this situation, that situation, this person, that person, yourself, even the weather- as if judging were your main function in life.  but I created you first and foremost to know ME and to live in rich communication with Me.  when you become preoccupied with passing judgment, you usurp My role. 
  relate to Me as creature to Creator, sheep to Shepherd, subject to King, clay to Potter.  allow Me to have My way in your life.  rather than evaluating My ways with you, accept them thankfully.  the intimacy I offer you is not an invitation to act as if you were My equal.  worship Me as King of kings while walking hand in hand with Me down the path of life."  (taken from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young)

I believe once we get to know our Heavenly Daddy, this becomes easier.  He created us to know Him.  Not just know about Him.  I have lived long enough to know I don't just want to have an acquaintance with Him. I want to know HIM!  How about you?  Do you know Him?  Or is He just an acquaintance?  He wants to be so much more.  And once He is so much more turning control over to Him is so much easier. 

Sunday, September 11, 2011

My heart is happy!

My heart is happy today because I know the God I serve and love is "The alpha and the Omega" (Revelation 1:8).  The beginning and the end.  He is the One who will say when it is over.  He is the One who rejoices over me with singing (Zephaniah 3:17)  He is the One on which I can call and He will always answer (Jeremiah 33:3)  He is my shelter, my all in all.  When I am weak, in Him I am strong (2 Corinthians 12:10)